Wednesday, November 17, 2004
I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight
And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t
Another day wasted out of time
I can't get out of this
Altered state of mind
I'm going overboard
My conscience meets decline
Into reality
I know this can't be fine
Cause I'm all messed up
Making perfect nonsense
Drowning in my doubt
Too well
Cause I'm all messed up
Going nowhere fast
These circles in my mind
So blind
seems negative huh? well, theres times tat everyone feels dis wae huh.. against life u noe.. tinking of it juz so negatively..juz cos theres problems.. problems tat can make u feel so helpless cos u juz cant do anithing to solve them.. sumtimes u try so hard to find a solution bt u noe u cant.. u can juz tink, cry n hope.
often, i question do i haf a part to play in other pple's problems.. does it occur bcos i was ignorant to the cracks tat are alredi forming? the faults tat are oredi showing frem the cause of the problem ..
-juz wish i cud haf seen the change in her sooner n stop her frem turning out tat wae. wish i cud juz haf a been a big sis n advice her. wish i didnt influence her n sumhow she turned out worst. wish wish wish.. ~wish u haf stayed the same. i admit.. im guilty even if i dont play a big role in creating the mess in ur life. wished u juz haf a brain too. stupid wishes. nw everything is in chaos. further famili segregation i foresee.
-famili
facing this problems n learning to cope wif them aint easy. patience n constant praying to God to help me guide thru life n b strong in coping wif myself,my life n my surroundings. it aint easy.
guess its very vague huh? tats all i gonna sae.. im nt gonna deny n pretend as if im living a gd life. cos im nt as hapie as u see me outside. tats all i'll confess.
the songs r sad cos i relate to those songs. wad i feel. wad im going thru. dont pity me.
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